It has been a while I haven't updated this blog!  I was just upset by my business law result very very seriously!  Regularly, I talked to my best friend about this, she kept silent for a while, and said "Tracy, you have been changed......"  (Silent) ................. "Where have been your confidence??  I hope one day, you will stay yourself calm and think about what your life is meaning to!!"  She might be right!  From Teenage stage to Adult stage, I did have the very big change!  I hate myself being dependent!!!  I hate that a lot!  Or I have never changed, I was naturally like that!  I was so afraid, I was sweating and shaking for this!  Perhaps, I expected myself and the people around me so much, may be one day I will be so tired about this world, and feeling no interest to anything!  I do not want to be like that honestly, perhaps, I will need to have another pattern of thinking stuff, besides me, my life has been so much other things and people, when I tried to do better, I found tried to make everything perfect (No doubt, that is stupid)!  May be, I have to slow myself down a little bit!  Relax my mind, Give a kind way to myself!  Cos, I love myself, and I love my life!  Sam .... Thx for your adivce!!  I think I gonna LOVE MYSELF MUCH MORE! and sooner, I will have myself back!