It has been a while I haven't updated this blog!  I was just upset by my business law result very very seriously!  Regularly, I talked to my best friend about this, she kept silent for a while, and said "Tracy, you have been changed......"  (Silent) ................. "Where have been your confidence??  I hope one day, you will stay yourself calm and think about what your life is meaning to!!"  She might be right!  From Teenage stage to Adult stage, I did have the very big change!  I hate myself being dependent!!!  I hate that a lot!  Or I have never changed, I was naturally like that!  I was so afraid, I was sweating and shaking for this!  Perhaps, I expected myself and the people around me so much, may be one day I will be so tired about this world, and feeling no interest to anything!  I do not want to be like that honestly, perhaps, I will need to have another pattern of thinking stuff, besides me, my life has been so much other things and people, when I tried to do better, I found tried to make everything perfect (No doubt, that is stupid)!  May be, I have to slow myself down a little bit!  Relax my mind, Give a kind way to myself!  Cos, I love myself, and I love my life!  Sam .... Thx for your adivce!!  I think I gonna LOVE MYSELF MUCH MORE! and sooner, I will have myself back! 

It has been 0226 at the morning now, and this is also the day I go back to Brisbane, Australia!  Home is always sweet!!  I was always being loved at home!  I was really loved by you all!  Friends and parents!  I just don't know how to say anything thankful in here, all I can say is "Thank you"!  I just had drink with Woodlies friends, they are peggy mum, winston, Joyce, Vivian, Kin and Yiu!  Thanks for your drink, Kin Sir!  And Thanks for your dinner, All of you!  I appreciated that so much!  I was just feeling so warm tonite!  I felt loved and concerned and cared and many many things!  I just really wanna say thank you all of of you!  And of course, thx for your books Vivian!  You are just so sweet, and I am so surprised that you still remembered what I told you on ship!  I am so touched!  I did remeber what Kin sir told me at last!  "Hey, don't pay us back unitl you have your job, we can at least afford the bill, just study well when you get there!"  Anyway, I just didn't know what I should say, I will have to say this is such my luck, my best luck, to have the friends like you all!  Anyway, I just wanna say thank you!  Thx so much to somebody who paid me for dinner and drinks and anyone who once cared and concerned me!  I wanna say I appreciate and I will always remember you all!  BEST WISHES TO YOU ALL, AND I LOVE YOU!  AND FRIENDSHIP FOREVER! 

My Long Vacation has been almost been done!  Now I am heading back where I should be!  Well, something has been changed in here and something seemed never been changed!  But anyway, break is over!  It's time to equip myself again!  No time, No money, but lots of dreams!  How will be my life then??  God knows??  Future seems very unclear!!  >_<

LEMONS and SUGAR

This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror
where one could read it every day.
You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.


1. There are at least two people in this world
that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world
love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you
is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,
even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you
before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you
take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received.
Forget about the rude remarks.


So.........
If you are a loving friend,
send this to everyone,
including the one that sent it to you.
If you get it back, then they really do love you.

And always remember....
when life hands you Lemons,
ask for Sugar and call me over!

Good friends are like stars.
You don't always see them,
But you know they are always there.

'Whenever God Closes One Door He Always Opens Another, Even Though
Sometimes It's Hell in the Hallway'

I would rather have one rose and a kind word
from a friend while I'm here
than a whole truckload when I'm gone.

Forward to all your friends.
And don't tell me you're too busy for this..
Don't you know the phrase
'stop and smell the flowers'?
See how many 'bouquets' you
end up with.

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Life keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only
God keeps You Going

Just back home and sit in front of the computer!  How sweet to be with woodlies!  I just got the perfect moment with them!  Oh my .........  I got the Bikini for my welcome back present!  Well, very nice, but um I am just too fat to have it!  Aww.........nice gift but wrong person!  We just got the really good nite!  Well, honestly, I don't wanna leave you guys!  Stay or not stay???  Don't know yet really! 

Aww, finally home!  Home sweet home!  You never know how good you home can be when you have left home for the very long time!  I just get off from flight yesterday, damn tired!  Then, unlucky Jefferey was caught by me!  hahaha, how nice the ride he gave me, I like his motor bike!  I love it~ !  He is such a lovely boy!  But very unlucky one, cos, he met me last night !  He got me the crazy ride~ wow!  Well, silly moment came, when I sit in front of computer, all I could remeber seem to be those sweet memory with you, I did want to get rip of it, but I may really need a while, when that's human nature, what you can't get is always the best!  But you never treasure what you have or or what you once have!  Perhaps, me either.............!  Well, everything has been over, even you sit at the same coupmter, someone you see may not be the same or never be the same!  Those were the days........I could not forget!  Well, silly moment over!  Make my life great in Brissy!  Make someone who treasure me!~ 

I haven't been in here for half a year!  Time seems going very fast!  A few days ago, I chatted with Winnie on phone for nearly two hours, wow what a chat!  But I was so happy to hear from her and Woodlies!  Nobody could imagine, much things has happened in this half a year!  I have went through so much I have never went through before in this half a year!  Well, but I enjoy it!  I like my life to be busy than boring!  I did mean to make it busy, anyway that's good for me though!  My life is beautiful, but i do need someone to share with me!  Where is he??  I dun know!  He may be someone who seems so far away from me!  The feeling is just too awful to force yourself to forget someone!  Suck..........! 

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I went to Sea world in Gold coast yesterday!  That place was pretty like Ocean Park!  hahaha.........but it was still very nice!  I had fun!  My life seems too busy!  I need to work, to study, to rock climb, to go back to table tennis competition and basketball...............and many more, I hope so! 

(To like a person, you just need one minute; To love a person, you just need one hour; To forget a person, you need the whole-life time)

Just came back from Metoring Program of uni!  I am now kinda relaxing, watching movies, reading books!  Time has gone really fast!  It has been one sememster already.  Second, third, fourth sememster are coming a head!  Well, how should I deal with my life!  I do have some goals to acheive!  Welll, I am kinda person who doesn't like settling down!  But should people settle down finally?   Yes, I think so!  Until, I found what I really want, all unitl I have done everything I wanna do?  There seems so many targets in front of me!  I really wanna done them all, but can I?  Well, I may be I do need someone to be in my side to tell me what I should do, or just let me know I am not forgotten! 

It was shopping nite tonite!  When I tried to use my leisure time all, I went to city!  Acutally, I had nothing to buy!  I just tried not to stay at home all day I went out for nothing!  I shopped around in city for a few hours, I met Hung in front of the Pub!  He said it was just too boring to shop around for nothing, why I just had drink with him!  We chatted with each other for whole nite, chatted whatever we wanted to chat!  He said we have met each other for more than three times already, it was such a fate!  So happy to know that he's gonna get married with his girlfriend in Vietnam!  Well, he was rite, why people can met each other, it's all about fate!  We had a very talkative nite!  Feeling good!

Wow.......I finally moved in here!  How released!  I have been so busy in the examination week!  I do really wanna move in as early as possible!  But I was just too busy to do that!  Well, but it was really a tough job to move everything myself!  Luckily, everything was done!  Serious muscle pain!  God..........!  Well, exmination done, it seems relaxed a little bit, but it seems nothing to do and concern also!  Well, werid!  However, I do need to relax myself a little bit!  Plan everything!  Well, I am being metor, hahahah, I am not sure if I can handle it, but I will try, try to do what I did in adventure ship in HK, use those PC skills!  Hopefully, it works! 

 

Um............Valentine's day is coming!  Gosh...............how embrassing the day for me!  >_<

Finally got my examination done!  The feeling is just so released!  I could finally move my things out of Sunnybank!  It is such a difficult mission to move everything myself, especially there isn't any lift in my new apartment in Kelvin Grove!  Well, That was indeed a hard job for me!  Let say how lucky I was today!  When I arrived to my new place, I was just wondering how I could move my huge suitcase upstairs!  When I was being so frustrated, a man came down and asked if I need help!  I was so so so touched with that!  Thanks tough guy!  Well, My roommate received my little cupboard which worth $40, cooooool I didn't have to move it to my new place, that's heavy stuff!  Third, when I went to food court today, I headed to the foodshop which I don't always go, the lady asked "Can I help you, they are all FREE.  I thought she said they are all three dollars!"  She said no they are all free!  Well, I was shocked!  OK, I got one beef burger, and two Lasagen (I did wanna have one only actually, but she gave me two, two was too much for me)!  Although, I finally couldn't eat them all, well it was such a very special and happy experience for me!  hahaha..................lucky me! 

This is my first Chinese New Year in Australia!  I couldn't even feel any Chinese New Year atmosphere in here!  Well, make sense, the Australian may doesn't even hear Chinese New Year, and they don't know Lei Shi!  Um...........feeling lonely ??  Yes a bit!  And so embrassingly, I will be alone in the coming Valentine's day again!  The worst thing is I am now having examination when the day all chinese are celebrating!  What the fuck!  Well, anyway, study mode again!  Hope every of my friend are all the best in the coming year!  恭喜發財, 新年進步, 萬事勝意, 橫財就手! 

It has been a while to leave this blog!  Well, the final examination is coming, which means I still have 5 months to go back to HK!  I really missed those when I was in HK!  I have woodleys and my ex around me!  To think my life before I come, everything seemed really perfect!  I have gone the best moment I have ever had!  I have seen Carol married already, I was so happy about that!  I have never expected that they would get married in this very short while!  Congrats guy and gals!  Sometimes, when I saw some good couple, I am just wondering if they went through their relationship very smoothly once?  Anyway, I am very happy about their marriage!  Although, we may not see each other ever after! 

 

Well, I am moving out soon again!  I have found some place near my uni!  And I gonna have 150 gigabyte per month!  Cool huh??  I can dowload anything I like!  Great!  Actually, I love the place I am living so much, but it was a bit far away from my uni!  However, I wanna go to University of Queensland next year which is the best univeristy in Queensland and 1 of the 8 most famous univeristy in Australia!  If I now move into Kelvin Grove, is it a bit far away from UQ??  WEll, forgot it!  Well, I think I gonna make some decision as fast as possible!  Hardly find my old smile as before!  Will I get it back?   I missed those days! 

Well, time is just going increditabily!  So fast!  Everything seems like happened yesterday!  Well, year 2007 was still so fierce for me!  My life was still good and juicy!  Although, there are still a few days to go 2008, I couldn't help to write my blog and memories everything for what happened!  Still like last year, I am not gonna list them all, but a few things that are unforgettable. 

 

26 February 2007, Really unforgettable! After ASYA camping, I met you!  I met the second one that I truly love in my life!  Fate always happened in the time you never expect.  Everything seemed miracle and meaningful! 

 

April 2007, The first time we got on Shipadventure!  It was nearly the end of our training!  Well, what we ever waited was this trip!  Anyway, the trip was just so juicy!  And I am the luckiest guy in the world, coz I met you guys!

 

May 2007, The hardest moment in my life!  I got into hospital with my serious sickness!  My body was never that weak!  I went through the hardest part in my life! 

 

October 2007, the first time I met you!  My heart beat and blood pressure were both getting so high!  When we met at the airport, the feeling was just too amazing, when we hugged together, it was just the most amazing moment, coz we have been wating too long!  However, things always happened in the time that you never expected!  Time was just so happy with you, I never imagine the time you leave me! 

 

October 2007, I finally got Australia!  My dream finally came true!  But the busy life came over to my life though!  Well, perhaps, this was the second hardest time in my life!  I gotta get used to my new life and went through the time without him, this was not the easy moment for me!  (Pretending like you were never in my life before!) 

 

Well, no matter what happened, Life must go on, and It will be still miracle or more miracle!  Goodbye, 2007 and Hello 2008! 

 

 

Well, Chirstmas is coming!  As same as the years I went through, it seems hardly to have a merry chirstmas with the one I love!  Well, may be I have had one before!  It has been 2 months already!  Luckily, I have been too busy to think so much, but when the time I am not busy I am just missing those time!  Well, sometimes, it was a bit hard for me t to have that transitional moment! That's not easy to ignore and forget something!  Sometimes, it seemed I have got used to not thinking about it!  But I am just wondering if I am trying to escape something or I was really busy to think about it!  Well, may be this quesiton was just too stupid!  If you are not thinking about it, that should be good for you, shouldn't be????  Yea, it should be!  Well, hahaha, Taurus girl is like too stubborn in some way!  Well, but I would like to say I have learned what I should do in the first broken relationship!  I am always so clear about what I should do actually!  Well, as I told a boy before "It is not possible to be happy if something did happened, but we gonna do something that we should do, but not only upset here!"  But.........................you know, about the relationship, I do have some questions!  What is a successful relationship????    What should I suppose to learn in a broken relationship??  I once read an ariticle, it said "no matter, how many relationship we went through, we still did the same mistakes, why???  This was because you love him or her!"  Um..........may be it is right!  Perhaps, Love is the only way that you are not supposed to think it so reasonably!  Well, may be I would say both parties are liars in a relationship, what they said at the very beginning were true, really!!!!  But when something situtaiton happened, they must possibly find some reasons to stop the relationship!  May be, I should say if people can find a reason for what they do, they can do ANYTHING!  It's anything!  Why????  Becsause there is the reason!  Perhaps, you may say they finally find a excuse to do what they wanna do!  Well, I don't mind people doing this and I don't feel surprise about that!  Coz, that's what always happened!  Maybe, the most treasurable thing I have had may be just what I got, but not what I learned!  I am feeling pity indeed, but well, I should be feeling pity though!  Relationship is like a partnership, if any of us doesn't wanna go on the business, the relationship would be "closed" sooner or later!  Once there is one who doesn't wanna go on, this relationship is no longer meaningful!  Once there is one doesn't feel happy in this relationship, it is meaningless already to keep it!  Well, hopefully, it is kinda mature love!  Perhaps, what I should face is not simply a person I love, but also a relationship!  Well, what I am dealing with is not a person, but a relationship!  What is the purpose of an relationship, everyone????  To be happy!  Merry chirstmas everyone!  And have the sweetest momnet with him or her, and do treasure and cherish who you have!  That's not easy to have the one you really love!  Best wishes for Chirstmas! 

It's 2am already!  When I was studying my accounting test, I got a call from the guy that I met at bus station!  Well, this guy did wanna have further relationship with me!  He calls me all the time and keeps saying he likes me and if I can give him a chance.....blah blah blah!  That sucks!  Pretty annoying!  I just went through something bad, and I am just too tired for any relationship yet!  Leave me alone!  I don't like you!  He said if I try to avoid him, hahaha~~~~I would like to say if you keep calling me all the time, I would do this!  Man~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  Gimme break! 

The assigments, tests and presentation are reaching their deadline!  But they are not going very smoothly!  Well, too much jobs and too less time!  I really wanna do something that I would like to do!  Like calling back to HK and metro radio!  But I am just too busy with that! I really wanna do my "best self", but that seems not easy at all.  Nevertheless, work load is not the only problems now for me!  I found that there seems something wrong about my body again!  I am feeling so weak these days!  I am just wondering if it happend again!  I am so worried!  Perhaps, the bad things all happened at the same time!  I just couldn't handle it very well at this moment!  Well, I know that stress affects my sickness!  Something I really mind, I do need some time to go through it!  I do need some time to forget it!  Well, health alert.........!  I gonna notice about that a bit!  Fine, I will be ok with that!  Ah ja fighting!  Bring it on! 

I talked to my mom last night through webcam last night!  I haven't seen her for two months already!  Actually, I did really miss her!  Well, I was just so upset after talking to her!  She looks so tired for her work!  She doesn't look good!  When she told me she became slimmer, coz, she didn't have time to have lucnh because of his stupid boss!  I was just feeling so sad!  I didn't what to do for her!  I really wanna say I love you!  I couldn't really imagine the life without her!  She have had enough!  I just don't know what to say!  Well, then, I found that nobody derserve me to be upset besides my parents, especially, my mom!  MOM, I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU!  Mom you are such a iron lady!  I couldn't imagine how I would be like if I was gone through the life like you!  But you can still be going the postive way!  You know your sickness, your debts, the things my dad did to you!  I am just so proud of you!  I don't know what to say but THANKS MOM!  I am gonna like you to go through everything in the postive way, I gonna think in the postive way!  And Treasure everything especially myself!  LOVE ME!